I should totally play with my little brother more often, he's so skinny and irritating. Hahaha don't you just miss those days when you chase your younger sibling around the house for uh, nothing.
Okay great I just chased him out of the room for the fifth time today GO ME.
Jamie is entering Primary 1 next year, Brendan's entering Secondary 1 next year. WOW.
It's strange seeing my little cousins/ siblings grow up. It's weird not being included in the mandatory "kids in the family around Bday kid" photo. Suddenly, 17 ain't that young anymore.
It's been a busy week training and packing and training again.
I really can't decide if I'm actually improving, sometimes I just wanna bash myself for making silly mistakes. Ohwells, 2 friendlies this week and another 2 friendlies next week. when I get home, most of the time I just wanna sleep.
External H3 results are out this week, I'm not having high hopes for it though, my results weren't exactly stellar. If I do get it, I'd say it's a miracle by God's hands.
Not to mention thursday's dday, whatever happens after I'll just have to deal with it maturely.
Xinty: Will do NfN, just slipped my mind.
Been thinking and talking and more importantly, listening. Things will turn out fine, hopefully. Because if we're going to let stuff like these get us down, it seriously won't be worth it, and I'm sure no one wants to waste this precious year.
VJC friendly on Saturday, and it was a great game. We kept our heads up, and tried pretty hard, though I think we could've tried much harder - it wasn't our best, yet. They're a really really good team, with a v strong foundation and I think that's what we need. Hopefully we'll meet them again next year, during the finals perhaps (: A few more friendlies coming up, quite exciting.
Am tired, but I'll press on.
Revelation: Change is not only the only constant in this world; God is always constant.
I've been feeling bodily tired, all in a good way.
Need to cut down caffeine intake.
Was browsing FAM 08 pictures on facebook, wow everyone looks so different and pretty in dresses and make up.
Made me wonder how our RJ grad night will be. I doubt I would bother to put in so much effort, FAM was enough.
TV has been occupying my nights though, haha super lot of dramas on Channel 5.
And I'm feeling extremely excited about Japan.
I extorted gummies from someone who's going to Australia.
Honestly, it was pretty demoralising. Not the discussion itself, but essentially what drove and motivated the intensity of the discussion.
Then again, I was really very heartened that there are people who cared enough to put their hands in the air tirelessly just to voice their opinions. It shows a sense of ownership, belief and commitment. There were differing sentiments and perspectives, but ultimately they all contributed towards provoking our thoughts with regard to our purpose in the first place. And I thought that was awesome, because I've learnt so much from it.
I've been pulled back down to the cold hard ground from the loftiness of ideals which was quite necessary, but that doesn't prevent me from dreaming and idealising again. Who says dreams aren't substantial? Maybe they are like balloons, all air and filled with nothing, only because we always perceive them to be that way. Who says we can't stuff them with marshmallows or chocolates or cotton or sand or gold or something else precious? Because we can, and it's possible to reconcile ideals with reality.
I don't like it when people create and promote dissent. Why in the world will anyone want to do that intentionally? Okay maybe the idealist in me would like to think that humans are essentially good-natured after all. But no, things happen time and again to prove me otherwise, and though I should've been conditioned enough to deal with the reality of it, I can't help but to be continually shocked at the tragedy of it all. Why why why? Frick I hate politics and I thought I was fortunate enough not to be involved in any or hardly any at all but okay I guess I'm wrong. I just don't get it.
It isn't nice when you're caught in the middle not knowing what to do next, in the fear of the possibility of your actions backfiring on you. But I know fear is the worst thing that can ever get anyone down and prevent anyone's dreams from happening. The worst fear of all is fearing to fail, and I don't want to be guilty of that.
Talked to Mingzhe for quite some time yesterday morning, about council and people and life and it was really nice being able to wonder aloud and just think about stuff. I realise I've been talking a lot more to people, opening up more than I usually did in the past, and that's a good thing I think.
So I am quite enlightened now, but more confused. It's a wonder how something like that can happen, but I remain hopeful.
(this is the result of verbal diarrhoea and hence is v incoherent)
Waking up early in the morning and being able to lie in bed thinking
1. sleepover rocked, wished I had more to say about it but it was one of those time when life is boring, there's nothing major to update to each other so just bask in the company.
2. my mum and aunt are amazing cooks. I want to cook, bake, and make edible stuff as well as them
3. laasya deserves a shout out here because she's been my go-to person when I lose my mind. And I get to attend her great big wedding in India in future and live in her house!!! (This rocks, it brings me close to my dream of having friends from all over the world I get to visit)
4. I have kidnapped Derrick's hard disk and I will slowly devour all the movies in there. Today, I started by watching 27 dresses (chick flick hahahaha).
5. had the gang over and we stuffed ourselves silly. Must work it off during Monday PT.
6. Mr De Souza is amazing! I want to see his baby.
7. Home is my favourite place on earth. Family gives me a warm, fuzzy feeling.
8. I think my life is boring, but I absolutely love it.
9. I like describing my day in point form, and I shall go choose another movie to watch.
haha I realise that vox makes a very good diary
Am having a bout of diarrhoea, super tiring ):
Damn my weak stomach
erm, I'm not sure they won't "kill" me for posting these up here but they won't see me during the holidays so it's ok! :D
Anyway, Laasya, I think you look SEDUCING so don't worry :P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENYSE, hope your birthday had nice food involved (:
Was funny, because andrew and yaoguang went "to the toilet" and bought Denyse chocolates instead. (Shocking, haha). I felt terribly underdressed cos Suvi (not pictured cos she had to rush to school) and XinYing were all made up, with make up and all - I though I became so much more girlier this year, and I find out that my classmates are wearing make up. Ah, forget it, I have no such skill and I'd still prefer taking only 20min to prepare to go out - saves precious time.
Funny things happened, like Yaoguang's "trick" backfiring on him, XY's "apron", and Zes changing squash racket grip in the middle of Raffles City. Oh and the guys promptly disappeared when we went into Accessorize/ Body Shop to browse, typical haha. I unfortunately had to go back to school for training, way back with J was just awkward haha. (Which is strange because I rarely feel awkward, nor do I feel the need to strike a convo - Wonder what that means)
It's been a weird few days, I'll admit.
Weird myraid of emotions.
It's early in the morning but I don't care.
